About to Breakdown

Haix... Again stress. Ok2.. Now working as i.t. admin. my pay $1500 with cpf contribution. Sound ok rite... But all is not ok. Confused?? Let me Explain. My dad as a cab driver is struggling to make ends meet. My mother is helping by selling pastry. My brother is getting married in 2 yrs time, so he'll need a lot of money.

Ok now, my problem. A part of my pay need to be given to my dad to help him pay for the bills. And now i'm worried coz now i don't like what i am doing... MEANING I HATE INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY. I want to switch line of study/work to Engineering preferably Electrical Engineering. But now i don't know what to do. The cost to take part-time degree is high, also it takes time. for a diploma its the cost is ok but still the time constrain. And both option leave me with little choice of helping my dad ease his burden. So which is a wiser choice?.. I wonder...

Ah also did sum simple calculation. A diploma course will leave me graduate without a job at 25 yrs old. A part-time degree will leave me a graduate without an engineering job at 28 yrs old.. Both options leave me thinking at what age can i get to marry dear... My Sweetheart Seri. Love her so much and of course i want to marry her and give her a good life to live.

So now i'm really feel like crying and shouting my lung out. It feels like i took a fall from the sky and landed on solid ground. Imagine how that feels..

Anyway I love u Dear Seri... I love you so much that i don't want to lose you... I want to marry you someday my Sweetheart, my bucuk, my horny angel..

Just an average guy. Nothing special about me. No heart, its been given to someone i called dear. Wish she would be with me again



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